I wish I could blog from office. Unfortunately, blogger is blocked. I mean, there are so many things that cross my mind that I wish I could write. But since I don't have access, I just ignore the things without writing it down.
Like for example, right now, I am in a very hateful mood. I am feeling this hatred towards everybody in my team (all seem to be jack-asses). There is this issue that is going on. No one knows how to fix it. I do though. But, I just don't want to tell them. Only because the fix is a work around. I feel that instead of giving a work around, we should just fix it at the source. But no one is listening to me. I know they will eventually get around to doing it my way. So I will keep quiet while everyone runs around trying to get a fix.
I don't get it though. I know there are some standards that we must follow. I totally agree to it. But if it is going to hamper performance - very drastically at that, we must take the best of what we can do, and do it. Screw the standards. But who listens to me! Apparently there is a right way of doing things, and there is a quick way of doing things. My team will always do the right, I guess. Finally when everything fails in production, they will realize that sometimes performance also matters.
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I wrote this in office. I decided that if I want to write something, I can always write and just mail it to myself. Later, if I feel like it, I would post it.
PS - I know it is not intelligent conversation!
30 June 2008
In Bruges (Its in Belgium!)
"Dude, what kind of a fucked up movie is this? In Bruges? What the fuck, man."
"You didn't like the movie? It was nice!"
"What part of the fucking movie did you like? I was waiting, and waiting for it to get better, but it just got fucking worse!!"
"haha, if I had to sit through it, so do you!"
"Ugh. I hated the movie, man. I did not understand anything! I don't know the point of the movie at all!"
"But didn't you like the dialogues? they were fucking awesome"
"All I heard in the movie was the word fuck, fucked, and such. Though I must admit, some parts were actually funny! Like the dialogue ---
'You from the States?'
'Yeah. But don't hold it against me. '
'I'll try not to... Just try not to say anything too loud or crass. '
--- hehehe"
"hahaha, yeah! And the part where Ray tells those fat guys not to go up the tower. The winding stairs and stuff.. hehe, the fat guy is actually tired of chasing him!! "
Whatever. I really didn't understand the movie. I cannot believe there are people who actually liked this movie! I think my friend liked the movie. And somehow didn't want to admit it. Hmm, I wonder why.
Colin Farell was amazing though. I actually felt sorry for him!
After watching the movie though, all I could think was "fuck it, why did I watch the fucking movie!" But in retrospect, it was not such a bad movie. Maybe I should watch it again to really get it.
PS - Bruges is a place in Belgium . A medieval place, historic. Very interesting, I thought.
22 June 2008
Small talk
I don't understand this whole concept of small talk. It is mostly used (I understand) when people don't know each other that well, and just have to talk to each other.
I can't do it. I just can't. What to talk about with people when you don't know them? Actually, I dont even find the need to do it. When there are a bunch of girls sitting, the topic mostly revolves around guys, and clothes. If it is a bunch of guys, they talk about girls or some of sport. Why can't we all have more intelligent conversation? Why does it have to be the same old boring stuff always. And if people are not talking about what I have already said, people will make fun of others. and then laugh. Call someone fat. Or show that some guy has a mole in his face. It is not funny, people. Get a life!
So what is this intelligent conversation? Books? Music? Cartoons? Movies? Politics? What!! The thing why this wont work is because everybody cannot talk about books. Not all read them. Not all follow politics either. So - talk about the weather!
But what is the point of talking to someone when you know you have nothing in common, and that all you will be talking to each other is about the weather?!
PS. I know. I just wrote what was in my head. Lots of confused thoughts. Needed to write it down to get thinking properly.
I can't do it. I just can't. What to talk about with people when you don't know them? Actually, I dont even find the need to do it. When there are a bunch of girls sitting, the topic mostly revolves around guys, and clothes. If it is a bunch of guys, they talk about girls or some of sport. Why can't we all have more intelligent conversation? Why does it have to be the same old boring stuff always. And if people are not talking about what I have already said, people will make fun of others. and then laugh. Call someone fat. Or show that some guy has a mole in his face. It is not funny, people. Get a life!
So what is this intelligent conversation? Books? Music? Cartoons? Movies? Politics? What!! The thing why this wont work is because everybody cannot talk about books. Not all read them. Not all follow politics either. So - talk about the weather!
But what is the point of talking to someone when you know you have nothing in common, and that all you will be talking to each other is about the weather?!
PS. I know. I just wrote what was in my head. Lots of confused thoughts. Needed to write it down to get thinking properly.
01 June 2008
Thinking...
I am sitting in front of my computer coz I to write all my photos into a DVD or a CD. But sorting out photos is such a pain! I have kept everything ready, but I just cannot decide which photos should be written in one CD, and such crap.
And while I am supposed to be *sorting* photos, all I do is look at them. Man, I just love looking at pics. I can do it all the time. And I dont even get bored looking at the same ones again and again. The last post is one of my favourite pics. I just felt like posting it... so there it is!
So when I was uploading the picture, I didn't have anything else to do, so I started reading my older blog posts. I realise that I don't actually blog. I mean, I can literally count the number of posts I have written.
Gosh! I've actually been blogging since 2005! That seems ages ago! My whole life has changed. I have been out of college for two years. Well, it will be 2 years in about 15 days I guess. But it has been nice.
Few days ago I met one of my friends. She insisted on meeting me in college. Though I was reluctant to go back to college ( I dont know why), I still did. She seemed different. She does not work in Bangalore, so I hardly ever meet her, or talk to her. We sat and spoke about college and our classmates. Wondering what everyone must be doing, and such crap. Oh well. Life goes on. You have to go on with it. Somehow she just seemed to be lost in that time. I was just waiting to get out of college, so yeah.
Life, oh.. life is good. I like how things are going. Well, some things I dont like how they are going, but hey, I cannot really expect everything to be awesome. It never works that way.
I am still clueless about what I want to do. Some of my friends want to study. MBA and stuff. But I don't feel like doing it. I think this is mainly because I do not want to enter any sort of college anywhere. My whole college seems to be a waste of my time,. I can't name one thing that I learnt in college that I am using now. I do not want that to happen again. I am scared of it happening I guess. I feel like, if I want to study or learn something, I can do it on my own. Doing an MBA is just to get a certificate. That's how I feel.
Oh well, looks like this has become a long post.
And while I am supposed to be *sorting* photos, all I do is look at them. Man, I just love looking at pics. I can do it all the time. And I dont even get bored looking at the same ones again and again. The last post is one of my favourite pics. I just felt like posting it... so there it is!
So when I was uploading the picture, I didn't have anything else to do, so I started reading my older blog posts. I realise that I don't actually blog. I mean, I can literally count the number of posts I have written.
Gosh! I've actually been blogging since 2005! That seems ages ago! My whole life has changed. I have been out of college for two years. Well, it will be 2 years in about 15 days I guess. But it has been nice.
Few days ago I met one of my friends. She insisted on meeting me in college. Though I was reluctant to go back to college ( I dont know why), I still did. She seemed different. She does not work in Bangalore, so I hardly ever meet her, or talk to her. We sat and spoke about college and our classmates. Wondering what everyone must be doing, and such crap. Oh well. Life goes on. You have to go on with it. Somehow she just seemed to be lost in that time. I was just waiting to get out of college, so yeah.
Life, oh.. life is good. I like how things are going. Well, some things I dont like how they are going, but hey, I cannot really expect everything to be awesome. It never works that way.
I am still clueless about what I want to do. Some of my friends want to study. MBA and stuff. But I don't feel like doing it. I think this is mainly because I do not want to enter any sort of college anywhere. My whole college seems to be a waste of my time,. I can't name one thing that I learnt in college that I am using now. I do not want that to happen again. I am scared of it happening I guess. I feel like, if I want to study or learn something, I can do it on my own. Doing an MBA is just to get a certificate. That's how I feel.
Oh well, looks like this has become a long post.
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