Bye everybody!

No, I am not gonna stop blogging. But since my exams are coming up, I am off for 2 weeks. Well, less than 2 weeks. Yikes. I haven’t studied anything. What’s new?

Whatever. More than studying I seem to be doing everything else. So one day I decided that I’d get up early in the morning, like 5am, so atleast at that time I wont be bothered with the phone and the damn messages. So I put the alarm for 5 am, right? Alarm rings at 5, and I am just too damn sleepy. Let me just sleep for 10 more minutes. Snooze. 10 minutes later, alarm rings again. Still too sleepy. I decide to wake up at 5:40. Change the timings in the alarm, and go back to sleep. I must have been dreaming or something, coz damn, I was so sleepy. Anyway, alarm rings at 5:40. And do I wake up? No. Again change the alarm. This time to 6:10. Snooze. Snooze. Finally got up at 6:30.

So from 5 to 6:30, I neither studied, nor did I sleep properly. I woke up like 5 times in one and half hours. What’s the point? And when I woke up finally, I seemed to be so tired!

Hmmm, and why the hell do I care how much others have studied? I send and receive so many messages, asking others if they finished this subject, that chapter, and whatever crap. Funny thing is, in a subject, I have still not decided what all to study. And when exactly will I study? Damnit.

Holy crap! Just 3 more days for the exam. I’m outta here!

I love nature!

There was a hailstorm here! It was just so awesome... just wow. I'm normally a person, who likes to stay indoors when it rains, just don't like get wet. But today was different.

So today, when it started raining, there was lots of wind. And I thought, oh, just another rainfall. And then, after sometime I started hearing noises like stones hitting the windowpane. And I realized then that it is ice! So I went out to the terrace, to see it fall. Though I was in shelter, as in, I was not getting wet.

But after sometime I saw that the whole area is full of ice. I mean, really, everything was so white, and it was so damn cold too. So I don’t know what happened to me, but I went out of that shelter, carrying an umbrella, coz I didn’t wanna get wet, to where it was raining.

Why I went is coz I wanted to take photos. It was like snow! So what if there is no snow in Bangalore, atleast we have something that looks like snow!!! Yeah, I know you all are thinking, so dumb, but I don’t care! Whoooo!!

So I took photos, and then I collected some ice. This I have stored it in the freezer. Don’t know why I took it, but something made me to it. Oh, and when I was standing there collecting ice, my mom and dad came out as well, and started taking pictures! So weird!

After sometime walking in the ice with the umbrella, I got bugged of it. Kept the umbrella, and was just walking in the ice. Damn it was cold. Duh! At that time though there was just a small drizzle.

I can’t believe I actually went out and stood out when it was raining, and that too for so long. That is so unlike me.

Its not like I have not seen hail before. I have. But today I was totally out of my mind!! I don’t know what came over me. If only there was more brightness, it would have been more fun. It was so dark, and there was no power as well. So we could just hear and feel the rain and ice fall down. But it was just so awesome! I’m so excited for no reason!

I don’t remember doing all this even when I was a kid. God! I actually collected ice!

Anyways, here’s a picture I took. Not clear at all. Coz it was so damn dark..

In the center, everything that is white, it the ice. Rest is the grass.

Boo!

Ughh what a day… I had my seminar for the project today, and I was sort of prepared for it (I can’t say that I was well prepared, you see? Coz I wasn’t). Anyway, since the seminar was in the afternoon, I had enough time in the morning to get prepared. So my whole batch decided to meet up in college and do the preparation together.

So I go to college, with full enthusiasm, coz I was just waiting to give the seminar and get it over with. I reach college and see that they have put up the marks for the technical seminar, that we had given almost a month back. And I saw that I got a 43! FORTY-THREE! Wtf! This was out of 50. And I thought I had done well in the seminar? Then I see the marks of others and see that the highest is 50, and the lowest is somewhere around 40… so I am somewhere near the bottom. I’m so far down, that I don’t even know what ‘up’ is! Wtf?

This totally ruined my day, coz I saw that other people who didn’t even finish their seminar, coz they were stammering so much, have got 47s and 48s, and I am stuck in 43. Yeah. That’s 43. Four three. Ughh.

So I was sitting in the lab of my dept, thinking why I got so less. And I got no answer. And this made me realize that I would probably get less in the seminar that I had to give today as well. So I lost all the enthusiasm to prepare for it. And when I went and gave the seminar too, I know I didn’t give my best there, coz I sort of knew that whatever I did, I would end up with something less.

Whatever. As soon as the seminar got over, I just came back home. Switched on the computer, and had just started to read my mails, and started to browse, that it started raining. And obviously when it starts raining, the power HAS to go. Yeah, that’s a rule- the power has to go. Too bad you didn’t know. Atleast you know now right? Be happy.

So since the power went, what could I do? Study? Naah… I decided to sit in the balcony and listen to music and watch the rainfall. And I was actually enjoying the rain. Yeah, you read that right! I ENJOYED the rain. Well, atleast for 15 minutes anyway. Oh well, so I was sitting there, and what was I thinking? Duh! The seminar marks. I’m just so bugged that I got so less. It is so damn discouraging. It would have been so better if they had not put up the marks at all. I must actually be really, really to get so less.

Anyway, when someone is thinking so much, you should NOT listen to songs that have lyrics like “I think I’m dumb, I think I’m dumb”. So that was what I was listening to. Nirvana, and coldplay. But after listening to “dumb, I decided to listen to only coldplay. And today, I realized that I just love this song called “Amsterdam”. I mean, I didn’t realize it till now! Weird huh? And this song is there with me, since ever! It must be the rains or something, coz of which I liked it so much.

Oh, and lyrics are just awesome of Amsterdam…

And time is on your side now.

Be a Vegetarian

I just watched this video , and damn it. If you are some one who eats meat, and chicken, this is what you all are allowing to happen. Damn, I feel sick to even drink milk now. :(

I Forgot!

So today morning I had to go to college. I was already running a little late, and was in a big hurry. So managed to eat whatever I could as fast as possible, and left home.

On the way, I realized that something was missing. Something was really different. I just could not tell what exactly it was. And it was really bugging me. And then. Realization dawned. I forgot to wear my glasses. Wtf! How the hell can I not realize if I am even wearing glasses or not. I don’t even wanna answer that question. Coz I don’t know the answer!! The main reason for wearing glasses is that I get a headache if I don’t wear it. And within some 3 hours or so, I got a headache. And as the day progressed, it just got worse. Damn it. I could not even go back home and get the glasses coz I had so much of work to do. There was no way I could waste my time in going back home and coming back to college just for this.

Anyway, almost everyone in my class was asking me, “What happened to your glasses”. And my pathetic answer was “I forgot”. This totally sucked.

Then, if that was not enough, I forgot to get a book for a friend and a CD for my classmate. Seems like I am forgetting everything. I should get a book and write down everything in it. But as it is said, I’ll probably lose that book too!! Sigh.

I’m too lazy to write anymore. I’ve become too lazy.

Basic Instinct 2

Since we had only 2 classes today, we decided to watch this movie after one class. We bunked one class for the movie. So how was the movie? I found it boring. After 5 minutes, I wanted to get up and go. But I didn’t, coz I spent 50 bucks on it. Damn what a waste. The thing with the movie is I could totally predict what the ending would be. And this, after just watching it for half an hour or so. But I must say, there were a few moments when I thought I was wrong about the ending (but I was right, really!). And the ending - I’m not even going to say anything about it. Arggghhh!!

Sharon stone was really irritating. I have not watched basic instinct 1, or any other movies of hers. And she really annoyed me. I found her to be very unnatural. I have no idea what the guy’s name is. But he looked totally dumb and totally out of place. Horrible acting by these two people. Damn, why did I watch this movie. Damn!

Funny thing was that my classmate sitting next to me didn’t get the story, or the names of the people in the movie, and I was sitting and explaining the story to her. Even after the movie got over, she was totally confused as what happened. The story was pretty ordinary. I didn’t know what’s not to get.

Well, after the movie got over, we got a treat in Pizza Hut by my classmate. That was the best part of the day. Pizza is just awesome. Nothing can beat that! Actually, if any of you have plans to watch this movie, go somewhere else and eat a pizza. Atleast you’ll fill your stomach and you’ll end up being happier. Hated the movie. Loved the pizza.

The usual

I don’t know why exactly all my enthusiasm for blogging stopped. There was a time when I would log on to the internet just to check how many people read my blog. Just to check how long they stayed reading it. I was obsessed with writing something, obsessed with knowing who read my blog. And then, just like a snap, I just didn’t care. Now, I hardly check the counter and stuff like that. Its weird how I changed so much so fast.

So I have college tomorrow. I’m just bugged of college. Same old classrooms, same old teachers, and the same old classmates. It’s getting kind of boring. I’m just waiting for college to get over. I suppose it will soon. Maybe I’ll stop attending college in 2 weeks or so.

Funny thing is, right now I’m thinking that after college it wont be this boring. What I am scared of is that it’s probably going to get worse. I mean, I’m always like that. When I was 10 years old, I wanted to be 18. When I was 18, I wanted to be 21. When I was a kid, I wanted to be an adult. And now I want to be 6 years old.

I’m supposed to be studying now. It’s been ages since I actually studied properly. I have loads to study, and I am still not in my senses. And damn, the weather is so nice, that I just wanna sleep. That’s all I have been doing the whole day today. Well, not the whole day. The whole afternoon. And then it rained again. Yay!

But just so you know, I hate the rains. Then why yay!? Because it is better than the damn summer. Winter was better. Why didn't I like winter then?

Then I had a craving to eat ice cream (hehe). So I went with my sister and got my favourite ice cream- hot chocolate fudge with ice cream. And my sister took an ice cream called “death by chocolate”. Her choice was horrible. It had some choc cake, with vanilla ice cream with choc syrup or something in it. People would probably die after eating so much, maybe that’s why it is called so. She could barely finish it. And when she was halfway, she kept telling me that if she eats another spoon of that ice cream, she would probably puke. I think maybe that cake had gone bad. She says it’s supposed to taste that way. Whatever. It was just horrible, sis.

I feel like watching some movie. Damn. And I gotta study now. I’m probably not gonna be sleeping this night coz I slept the whole afternoon. From 3:30 to 5:30 or some shit. What was I thinking?

Why can't I think of some nice title? This always irritates me. "The usual"?! ughhhh!

And Rajkumar dies…

I don’t know what’s the big deal! He’s just a flimstar people, not god! I don’t get what’s the need for all this riots and stuff to happen!

I had gone to write an exam today in a college, which is pretty far from the rest of Bangalore. By the time our exam got over, and we could leave the college it was almost 430 pm. I have no clue exactly when he died, but we got the news of his death by sms in our mobile phones.

Funny thing is my friend and me were getting excited coz of what was happening. You know, all the riots and stuff. I mean, there’s nothing to get scared of, right? What can they possibly do to a college bus? But some of the people in the bus were really scared, and they were ordering us to close the windows and all.

On the way, we saw that most of the roads were blocked, probably coz something had already happened there, or maybe preventive measure. Who knows? So the college bus had to take a longer route to reach college. And which road does the driver take? Dr Rajkumar road. The whole road was empty. Nothing could happen in an empty road, right? Wrong. Four people blocked the road, and started yelling at the driver. The driver was yelling back at them. They kept on screaming at each other for 2 minutes. Finally they left, and then we also left.

As we moved on, we saw that there were huge posters of Rajkumar everywhere, with garlands and agarbathis and lots of people around. All the vans had his posters stuck, probably coz they didn’t wanna be hit by stones…

But everything was calm. Lots of policemen around. Nothing to get scared of. People’s mentality is such that we expect something to happen, and maybe we say something that is misunderstood by others.

Anyway, I reached home safely. Oh, and I started blogging again?

‘THE’ presentation

It was good. It was really good (according to me anyways). I was actually thinking that I will be nervous and that I’ll forget half the things. But when I went and stood in front of the class, I was so calm and so cool, that I was thinking why I am not scared yet. Haha.. I was waiting to get nervous. But I didn’t, so it was just awesome. And people apparently understood what I was saying, so I am happy.

This was really weird, because as far as I remember, I had stage fear. I could not stand in front of people and speak without stammering. But that day I didn’t even stammer once! So freaky.

When I was in 9th or 10th, I had to give a speech in the school assembly. I had prepared everything well. I don’t remember if I was nervous or anything. But I went there on the stage, looked into the paper, then looked at all the students waiting for me to say something. And I was just blank!(this with the paper in my hand) Then I said “good afternoon”. Thank god, no one laughed. It was 9 in the morning, you see? But after that good afternoon thing, everything was fine. I actually didn’t even realize that I had said something like that. It was only later that my classmates told me that I had made such a dumb mistake.

So anyways, after that speech in school I was always apprehensive about making mistakes like that. But after this seminar of mine, I’ve become confident. Which is a good thing, of course.

That's it

Finally I wrote only 3 subjects, even though I had prepared for the last one. There is this unwritten rule that you can’t write all the 4 subjects, so I had to follow it, you know? I know I will be regretting this later, when during the 3rd internals I will have no time to study coz I will be busy ‘preparing’ for the finals.

Anyways, nothing much going on lately. I have been trying to finish my ppt, since god knows when, and its not getting completed. I mean, I sit in front of the computer, and the modem automatically switches on, and I am connected to the internet. And then I start reading blogs, or whatever. I have no idea how people can manage to work AND blog at the same time.

So, my ppt is almost over, though I am not really happy with some of the slides. Come to think of it, I will never be happy with the whole thing. Every time I see a slide I see a fault in it. My seminar is in 2 days, and my preparation is almost zero. Heck! The ppt is still not ready!

I wont be panicking today, or tomorrow. But on the day of the seminar, I know there will be butterflies in my stomach. I can almost feel it. Haha. I don’t want anything to go wrong that day. Looks like anything related to my seminar is jinxed. First, I could not do the topic that I wanted to do coz some other idiot wanted to do it. And then, 2 days back (during internals), because of a high voltage power that came through magically in the wires, caused a spark in the CPU. And because of this, the CPU was not getting switched on. It got fixed yesterday evening by 8 pm. And I tried to complete the ppt. But by 11 or something, I was just so damn sleepy, that I had to go to sleep. This was probably coz of the 5-hour sleep that I had in the past 3 or 4 days.