Fish

Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day; teach a man to fish and he will eat for a lifetime; give a man religion and he will die praying for a fish.

the worst thing ever

My mom told me that a eleven year old committed suicide. By hanging herself. In a shed. It is pretty disturbing. What would cause that kid to kill herself? What would have given her the idea of killing herself? I find it surprising that 11 year olds have something to be depressed about. Something for which she thought she cannot go on living. Especially in an age when they are supposed to be having fun and playing and joking around.

The whole fact that someone committed suicide at such a young age is making me very sad. I asked my mom if she had written a letter. My mom said, "do you really think she would have written a letter? She's a kid". And I thought - no she is not. She decided to kill herself. To take a rope, make a knot, and put it around her neck, and jump (?). How? Why? What was she thinking? When she put that noose around her neck? What were her last thoughts?

I wish I could do something. At least to prevent more people from doing it.

Quote

"I can resist anything except temptation" - Wilde

Frustrated

It is so frustrating when the internet does not work. I feel like I am living in the stone age or something. I hate BSNL. I really do. It has been almost 2 weeks ( or maybe even three) since when the internet has become really slow. The sad part is that no one in BSNL knows why it is slow, or why the speed drops down so often. They must have made us call 25 people, and all of them have asked us to call someone else, or to log a complaint with someone else.

I watched two movies today. Quick gun murugan. A movie that no one should ever see. Ever. It is like college Mad-ads for 1.5 hours. Painful.

And to get over that movie, saw another one. The taking of pelham 123. Its a decent movie, felt good to watch something better than the other crappy movies.

Also, last week I saw Public Enemies. It is a nice movie. Really liked the setting, the actors, the way they spoke. It was all very believable. There was also this song that they played in the background which I am trying to remember... will have to google that out. It is played when he gets into the first bank.

Not any great movies now a days.

Random

Till today I thought that "double spaced" meant that there should be two spaces between two words. Apparently it means there should be more gap between lines. The space between the lines are double. If that makes sense.

I have more stuff to write but my back is aching, and I can't sit anymore. Sigh.

Respect and assumptions

Sometimes, people don't get the respect they deserve. Perhaps it is because they don't know the person, or because they don't know any better, or they know the person very well (and hence take the other for granted). This totally annoys me. I just hope I am not like that.

Sometimes I wonder how I would look like from another person's eyes. I mean, we all have opinions of each other - and not everything is told to them. So like that, others would think something of me, and I want to know what that is.

There is no way of finding this out. Because, if you ask them, they would always tell you what you want to hear and not really what they think.

This is when people start assuming things and jumping into conclusions. But, there is no way to find out if what you have assumed or concluded is correct. An assumption will always remain an assumption.

Please don't stop the music

Yesterday I changed the ring tone in my phone to the song "Please don't stop the music" by Rihanna. Today, I left my ear phones in the office. The music has officially stopped - today from office to home. And tomorrow from home to office. Unless, I take some other ear phone of course.

Somehow the day has been extremely irritating today... There are people who are interfering with my work, and it seems like some people have no trust in what I do. And it is just totally annoying. Of course, I will get over it as I usually do, but at the moment it is bugging me.

Why me?

I usually work till 5:30 in the evening. However, sometimes I have to stay back for some meetings that my wonderful TL likes to suggest weird timings.

So yesterday as well, he scheduled a meeting from 5:30 to 7! 1.5 hours! As soon as I woke up, I was irritated cause I hate staying back. I was considering going to office late, but finally decided to at my normal time.

In the evening, I asked him if it was okay if I didn't attend it. He said fine! Good for me. Meetings are a waste anyway - all that gets decided is when to have the next meeting! (Don't know where I read this, but it is so true).

So I left my cubicle at 5:25. I have to go down two flights of stairs, and I usually take the stairs. However, I was scared of missing my cab, so I decided to take the lift.

There was already someone waiting near the lift, so the lift should come up any second. But it didnt. Dont know how long I waited, but it seemed an eternity. So finally it came, and we got in. We pressed the Zero floor. The doors closed. And then nothing happened. We decided to press the button a few more times, hoping it would work (yeah, right). But nothing happened. So I decided to get off the lift, and take the stairs anyway. But now the doors would not open. Lovely.

So we pressed few other buttons that were there, and after another eternity, the doors opened. It was 5:30. My cab left.

Went back to my cubicle... But I did not attend the meeting.

Annoyed

My phone is acting all weird today. First, in the morning, while I was listening to music, it would not allow me to change the volume. So I actually had to switch it off and then switch it back on.

And then, as soon as I switched it on - it decided to call a number on my contacts. I cut it. Then, she called back to know why I had called. But could I pick up the call? Of course not! So I tried calling back to explain. As soon as I could hear one ring, it stopped calling. It got disconnected!! I was not sure if it was a problem with the network or my phone. I just assumed it was the network.

Then, it would not play the radio. And if at all it played, it would keep changing the channels - so that I was not listening to any station for more than 5 seconds. Very calming.

After a lot of switching off and switching on - removing the battery and putting it back on, I finally figured out what the problem could be. It was the memory card! I removed it, and everything was fine. I put it back, and everything started to hang.

But I need the memory card. That's where all my music is stored. And so I devised a plan. I switched on the phone. I put on the radio. I put the memory card. And made sure that I don't touch any of the buttons. I literally kept counting minutes. And so, after some time ( I suppose after everything loaded fine), everything was working fine. I could make calls, and listen to whatever I want, and could increase/decrease the volume.

And I reached office. NO, no it does not end.

I was on my way for a coffee break - and there comes this woman. She is just swaying her hands around me, and off goes the phone from my hand. Flying. It came down in 3 pieces. I just got down and picked up the pieces. She was very apologetic. I told her that its alright, and went ahead putting everything back together. Had to go through it all again - battery, memory card, blah blah.

In the evening, I was talking on the phone with a friend. It got disconnected 5 times in 5 minutes. Then I decided if it gets disconnected again, I would talk tomorrow. It got disconnected in 2 seconds.

I don't know. No idea whats wrong! Did not change anything in the phone , and did not put anything new in the memory card either. Just a bad day.

The shining

The hedges are supposed to move. The lions are supposed to come alive! The boy is supposed to see it, and so should his father! This can't be happening. They HAVE to show it come alive. I mean, thats like the best part! The part where Danny gets into the room 237... That's scary! I got scared while reading the book. Seriously! But, not scary in the movie. Sure is creepy, though. The lift, how the house talks to Jack? Not really there either.

Lots of things were supposed to happen - but they didnt. Did not make it any less better though.

The good stuff - Jack Nicholson, of course. The part where he is walking up the stairs, and he is shouting , I am not gonna hurt you, ha ha. I am just gonna cut you into little pieces.. or something like that. And the ending - with the maze and all that running around! Jack's psychotic smiles. Yikes.

Somehow I remember the hotel burning up in the end (of the book) - but that did not happen in the movie. In the movie, Jack is a ghost - not really sure if he was one the book as well.